Today, it has been 4 weeks since I had my surgery. Yayyyy! There are so many things I still need to get accustomed to like not drinking with meals, not being able to eat more than a few ounces at a time, the scale actually moving in the right direction, clothes hanging off of me, etc. I know that these things will eventually feel like second nature, but for now it is still very new.
If anyone ever asks me if I made the right choice I have a short story to tell now. Ian has been having a hard time falling asleep this week. It may have something to do with the sinus infection he has. In any case, he and I were lying in my bed watching television Tuesday night. I was watching the Biggest Loser. It feels totally different watching it now. It was only week 2 so the contestants are still rather large. One segment showed a few of the ladies working out with Julian. Ian points to the television and says "Just like you, Mama, just like you." I was almost ready to cry when I remembered that I had made a choice to help myself that does not require Julian Michaels berating me on television. Don't get me wrong, I think she kicks butt, but I don't want her kicking my butt! It was such a powerful message to get from an almost 3 year old about things he actually notices. He is still so young and innocent. I just want to be the best mom and healthiest mom I can be for him.
I left my notebook with my meals at school today. I have a backup one here, but I truly could not accurately post anything I had in the last few days without looking. Since being back at work, I have had some trouble tolerating foods that I have been eating for weeks so the journal reads a few bites here and a few bites there. I can say that I am getting in all my fluids as long as I have tropical punch flavored Sugar Free Kool Aid or Tropical Punch Crystal Light. They rock!
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